Ten Things Tuesday

22 04 2008

 Ten things about my research paper that is due tomorrow;

1. Religion and Psychology is a difficult topic. It has been emotionally exhausting to write.

2. I have had a difficult time writing about what conservative Christians have to say about homosexuality. They say homosexuality is “unnatural”. Writing about it being “unnatural” felt unnatural. And icky.

3. I am profoundly grateful that I was not raised in a religious household. The coming out process would have been more difficult than it already was.

4. I have several friends who were raised Catholic. For most of them, it is still very difficult to talk about. My friends, who are in their mid to late thirties, continue to struggle with their relationship with God. Although I believe that everything happens for a reason and that people are exactly where they need to be, I wish the spiritual road was a little less bumpy for them.

5. Some people still believe that homosexuality is a mental disorder than can be, and should be cured. They call it “reparative” or “conversion” therapy. Ugh


7. I continue to believe that every person has a right to believe what they want to believe. My feeling is if it works for you, great! I do have a problem with people pushing their beliefs on to other people and trying to make them wrong, especially to the point where it can cause another person harm. It has been said that gay and lesbian teens are twice as likely to attempt suicide than their straight peers. I’m not ok with that.

8. There are so many things that the bible says that people just don’t follow or care about anymore. The following video illustrates my point;

I continue to wonder why some people dig their heals in over this issue. What are they so afraid of?

9. I have heard and read over and over again that although some Christians don’t approve of gay and lesbian people, they do love us. I’m sorry, but no one who loves me has ever said I should be ashamed of my sexuality, that they won’t accept me for who I am, that I should try to change who I am.

10. I continue to believe in creation. God created the whole ball of wax. He/she is the big guy/gal. I believe, very firmly, that if God didn’t want there to be homosexuality, there simply would not be homosexuality. I feel like people who say otherwise are questioning God’s “power”. What? It’s a choice you say? Why don’t you go ahead and try to be gay for a day and see how that works out for ya. Go ahead, I’ll wait. We can talk about this whole choice thing then.



The Preliminary Results Are In

27 02 2008

First, I need to apologize to you. I told a lie but didn’t mean to. This is actually the second accidental lie I have told today and the third apology. I also apologized for the first lie and for giving Boss’s 14 year old a harsh talkin’ to for something I thought she did but turns out she didn’t. I believe in owning my shit and maken amends..

Anyway, I told you that I had my first big test today. That was the lie. On Monday I had my Computers for Dummies mid-term. I really don’t count that because, well, it’s Computers for Dummies. Technically though, that was my first big test. Sorry.

I wasn’t really sure I was going to blog about this because I don’t want to sound like a smarty pants and I don’t want it to seem like I am lookin for compliments.. Got me? Having said that, my Psychology Professor graded the test part of the exam. I only missed one and got the best grade in the class. That has never happened to me before. Never. Since the third grade I have believed (partly because of my teacher, Mrs. I hate kids and will do anything I can to make them feel like stupid pieces of shit) that I was not smart. It has taken me years to get over this and to find the courage to get my ass to school. I know that I am smart, it’s just taken me awhile to believe that in my heart.

I feel like I did well on the essay part too. My hand cramped up from writing so much and so fast. I’ll know more next week.

I also want to say thanks to everyone who has been so supportive of me and for all the encouragement. Thanks for believing in me, especially you Chili.



My First Big Test

27 02 2008

 I have my Introduction To Psychology mid-term today. I am ready. Spelling counts which sucks but I am thinking that my vast knowledge of the subject matter will override my spelling mistakes. Yes, I have been practicing the words I often misspell..


25 02 2008

 Last Tuesday after work I came home, turned on the news and was futzing around the kitchen. I was not paying attention to the news at all. All of a sudden, I hear a crack. In an instant I was focused. I mean like the world stopped focused. Normally when you hear a crack it means something bad. Not in this case. Before I even turned toward the noise I knew what it was and I was instantly filled with joy and hope. I felt the smile form on my face and with that one crack, all was right in my world. I turned toward the tv and there it was; they were showing Big Papi in the cages wailing on baseballs.

papi-batting.jpg Here he is at his first day of spring training.papi-and-brad-mills.jpg Here his is showing Brad Mills, the bench coach, some love.

happy-david.jpg `As you can see, he is very happy to see Sean Casey. Papi isn’t my favorite player, Wakefield is, but just look at this guy! He loves to play, he loves his coaches, and he loves his team. And boy can he crush a baseball. I have to say, I have enjoyed watching him over the years. When he’s at bat, people stop and watch. They don’t want to miss him hitting one over the Green Monster. And if he doesn’t hit it out, it is funny as hell to watch him chug run and even more funny to watch him belly flop his sorry ass slide into second.

 We didn’t watch baseball as kids, we were a football family. Chili watches baseball because, well, if you can’t beat ’em, join ’em. I didn’t start watching baseball on a regular basis until the late 90’s. When I started, it was true love. Me and baseball just fit. I’m not exactly sure what it is about baseball that I love so much. It just touches something deep inside me. Have you ever had someone ask you how you knew something and your reply was “I just know”. That’s it for me. I just know.

 I can, and have on one occasion, talk about baseball all day long. The day I went to the rally, me and the peeps talked about baseball all day. It really was one of the best days of my life. Great people, another world series banner, a parade and lots of cold beer. I was in my glory. Maslow would call it a “peak experience”. Holy crap! I have to write an essay for my mid-term this week. I am so doing it on Maslow’s Hierarchy of needs as it related to my day at the rally! All of my needs were met and I was so self-actualized that day it wasn’t even funny! Whoa, sorry about that school tangent, I just got very excited for a minuet.. Back to baseball. This is going to be a exciting year. Look at this team we have! We’ve got  a rookie of the year (Dustin), a gold glove winner ( Youk ,who, by the way was moved from 3rd to first just last year) a kid who threw a no hitter ( Clay) a future rookie of the year ( Jacoby, who will beat out Crisp for the starting center field job) and a bunch of veterans who just kick ass. Hell, Manny even showed up for spring training ON TIME this year. A political move (he is in the last year of his contract this year) but on time none


the less.  I have never been as excited  for baseball to begin as I am this year. Yesterday I found myself searching the guide on the tv for ANYTHING baseball related to watch. Sadly, I found nothing. This Thursday is their first game. They always play Boston college in the spring. How lucky those college boys are to have a chance to play the World Series Champs! I would love a chance to try and hit one off of Wake. I know I would never connect, but to have the chance at a at bat against this guy would be so cool. Have you seen him pitch? The things he can make a baseball do are amazing!

 Ok, I’ll stop now. We can talk more about this as the season goes on. I’ll end with some more pictures.

tim.jpg Tim working his magic!dustin.jpg Dustin, 2007 Rookie of the Year. pap.jpg Pap, soon to be the best closer ever.

foot-race.jpg Youk and Coco in a foot race. Youk has no chance.

 And for Chili and Kizz because they were not impressed with the picture of Nick that I posted for THEM(!) yesterday, here is Mike running drills and a random, non baseball picture of Colin Farrell. Who loves you girls more than me?

mike-running-drills.jpg                                            colin_farrell.jpg

Photo Credits: .  All Papi pics and Manny    Tim,Dustin,Pap,Youk, Coco andMike   Colin

They gave up on me

18 02 2008

 After two different antibiotics that caused two different(but equally disgusting) intestinal woes, the doctor has decided to stop medicating me. “How do you feel?” she asked. “I never felt sick to begin with.” I replied. “You have been on them for 5 days, you should be fine.” She said. “Good because this is the second day in a row I have been afraid to leave the house. I really need to go to work tomorrow.” I said.

 An interesting bit of irony is that I was reading about psychosomatic problems (which include, but are not limited to, stomach pain and diarrhea) while in the bathroom. Obviously my issues are not psychosomatic, I just figured if I was going to be in there for awhile I might as well be doing homework. toilet.jpg

 The up side to all this is that I have not had hives in awhile.

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Hives part??? And other stuff.

11 02 2008

 Live blogging from class. Mr. Teacher said that today would be easier then the last two weeks. Easier? Ugh.

 I went for my follow up  the doc today. Still can’t really confirm what is causing the hives. I had more blood work and a sinus x-ray today. Apparently my white blood cell count is very low. Turns out I have some sort of infection. The NP thinks it’s a sinus. I told her I felt fine and have clear shnoogers. She put me on an antibiotic anyway. I have been feeling much better but still am very tired and have been sleeping late, like till six. What ever I have is wearing me out. And frustrating me in a big way.

 I’m not sure if I told you this or not, but I called the PO last Thursday, late afternoon and left her a voice mail. She called me back today and left a message for me. She was out sick on Friday. She said she would “love” to go to lunch but this week she was very busy. She said we could figure it out when we got in touch with each other. Of course when I called her back, she was not at her desk… So, I left her a message and said that next week would be great, maybe dinner would work better for you? I’ll keep you posted.

 Also, I really dig how when you go to log in to word press it says “Already hip?”. Everytime I see that I say to myself “Yes I am!”. I’m a dork, I know.

Just some random stuff

8 02 2008

 I was sitting on the couch doing homework when there was a knock on the door. It was the roommates mom. I yelled for her to come in, put my book down and wondered why she would be coming up. The rent was paid, and the trash was out and the barrels put away. She never asks me to shovel the snow, I just do it. Besides there really wasn’t enough to bother with. Well, dear readers, she was up to give me something. ” I made some brownies for you kids!” She said. I love it when she calls us “kids”.  Anyway, she has no idea that I am allergic to chocolate. She knows I love chocolate though. I didn’t have the heart to tell her. I thanked her, gave her a hug and off she went.

 I will eat the brownies. I have not have hives for almost two days. I only had a chocolate chip cookie on Tuesday and that was after I got them. Wednesday, no chocolate, hives anyway. No hives last night and I had a bowl of ice-cream. I have not had a mocha latte since Monday. I doubt that the hives are from the chocolate. I am wondering if it may be some sort of hormonal thing as I seem to get them the worst when it’s that time of the month. I will talk to the doc about it on Monday..

 Yesterday I called the PO and left her a voice-mail about when I will be available for lunch next week. She has not called me back yet…

 I chose a topic for my research paper. I originally went with Religion and Psychology but the Professor said someone else was doing something similar. I then suggested Religion and Sexuality. He said that would be fine. I am having a hard time deciding exactly what to write about. I could just do homosexuality but I want to compare it with the churches views on heterosexual relationships as well. What I would really like to do is both but from different denominations. I was thinking UU, Catholic and Jewish. I have lots of ideas and could make this damn paper 200 pages long. I want to do interviews with church leaders as well as church members. I did a quick google search on “Religion and Sexuality” but didn’t come up with much. I’m planning on going to the library this week. Has anybody read any books on this topic? Oh, and I am on the lookout for a really cool church to take a picture of to put on the cover of my paper. I LOVE churches! Did you know that about me? There is something about the architecture that sucks me in. I went to the Washington National Cathedral and could have stayed in there all day just looking around. Tried to upload a picture, it didn’t work!??? Sorry.